I am a 35 year old Indian-origin immigrant belonging to an upper-caste family who has lived outside of India for the vast majority of my life. Your work is important, the work of your colleagues is important. Thank you.
I was a dark-skinned boy in Singapura from 1990-2005. I was sexually abused once when I was 9 years old, on the doorstep of my own home by a stranger while my entire family was nearby. I attended Singapura's public schools. My first memories of traumatization are from when I was in Kindergarten. By age 12, I had experienced sufficient traumatization, ostracization and isolation to result in dehumanization. I have been struggling ever since to recover, this recovery was only possible upon experiencing total isolation and complete ostracization in 2022, and several decades more of traumatization at school, university, and at work.
I migrated to Canada in 2005. I attended a high school here briefly and was admitted to a white supremacist terrorists' training camp, often referred to as a "university" of Waterloo. I was admitted into the, incredibly white and male, Computer Engineering program. As a survivor of sexual abuse, I was disgusted by the immature, rapist & pedophile anti-culture which seemed to pervade the entire space. I failed out of the engineering program and switched to the science faculty. Only to find further alienation, ostracization and isolation. I was treated like a rapist even while spending all of my time uninterested in women, usually studying and reading alone. I was handed a bible by white christian students as though it were the cure for all of my suffering - that event felt like a drug dealer giving me a free sample, it felt like what I imagine engaging in sexual abuse towards children might feel like. My suffering as a sexual abuse survivor and as a survivor of the genocide implemented by the Chinese in Singapura was completely ignored by everyone, including the supposed healthcare professionals I interacted with at the space which describes itself as a "university" and by the surrounding city. I staged a peaceful protest for which I was arrested, which led directly to the only point in my life where I have felt truly suicidal.
Every education system in my life has implemented a genocide upon me, in full view of hundreds, thousands of students, teachers, professors, healthcare professionals. I have attempted to seek redress at all of these institutions and received only further violence, further trauma. I approached a "Jeremy DeBoer" at a "Human Rights" office on the campus, was given a print-out of a form and a glare that can only mean "you'll f*** off now, n*****, if you know what's good for you". I approached lawyers at SorbaraLaw in Waterloo who completely ignored my concerns, several students have killed themselves at the place where I attempted to educate myself and build a life, as well as other similar spaces in Ontario. No rigorous investigation has been carried out by the government, the press/journalists, or even the citizens and taxpayers who provided me with OSAP loans which I took quite seriously and approached my education as seriously as I could, given the decades worth of dehumanization I had been struggling against.
In spite of all of this, I went to great lengths independently to educate and humanize myself to the extent possible and build a life. In spite of the racist, anti-Black, anti-Indigenous, anti-Muslim, colorist, casteist spaces I had to endure in Singapura, Canada, at home and elsewhere. I participated in Open Source software projects, learning to operate the FreeBSD operating system on dedicated hardware, providing several petabytes of secure routing through the hardware/netowrk I operated. I worked briefly at two jobs in Canada, one in British Columbia, one in Ontario. I had to vacate both positions due to extreme traumatization. There has been no accountability/responsibility thus far. At my last position as Senior Site Reliability Engineer with Nylas, I was 32 years old with not 1 year of trauma-free, joyful life to look back at. On 12th February 2021, I was traumatized to the point of re-experiencing my entire lifetime's worth of traumatization at one unavoidable, excruciating length, including the trauma from that act of violence itself. I approached the Ontario Human Rights Legal Aid clinic in this severely traumatized state and was told to "seek accommodation".
This is the backwards, pointless, nonsensical, state of the colonizers' world. There is barely any humanity here, but they are all quite proud of the convenient narratives they have built for themselves, ignoring all of the violence that they engage in every moment of their ignorant lives. A peaceful, non-violent student of Buddhadhamma, such as myself, will suffer for decades without the tiniest bit of effort expended by anyone to understand our suffering. I owe my re-humanization and (re)education to Lord Buddha Shakyamuni, to the Buddhadhamma, to the Sangha, to His Holiness The 14th Dalai Lama, to Thich Naht Hanh, to Dr. Ambedkar, to the Threefold-Precious-Gem, to Nature, and all I had to nourish me on this journey was a single drop of blood.
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I am a 35 year old Indian-origin immigrant belonging to an upper-caste family who has lived outside of India for the vast majority of my life. Your work is important, the work of your colleagues is important. Thank you.
I was a dark-skinned boy in Singapura from 1990-2005. I was sexually abused once when I was 9 years old, on the doorstep of my own home by a stranger while my entire family was nearby. I attended Singapura's public schools. My first memories of traumatization are from when I was in Kindergarten. By age 12, I had experienced sufficient traumatization, ostracization and isolation to result in dehumanization. I have been struggling ever since to recover, this recovery was only possible upon experiencing total isolation and complete ostracization in 2022, and several decades more of traumatization at school, university, and at work.
I migrated to Canada in 2005. I attended a high school here briefly and was admitted to a white supremacist terrorists' training camp, often referred to as a "university" of Waterloo. I was admitted into the, incredibly white and male, Computer Engineering program. As a survivor of sexual abuse, I was disgusted by the immature, rapist & pedophile anti-culture which seemed to pervade the entire space. I failed out of the engineering program and switched to the science faculty. Only to find further alienation, ostracization and isolation. I was treated like a rapist even while spending all of my time uninterested in women, usually studying and reading alone. I was handed a bible by white christian students as though it were the cure for all of my suffering - that event felt like a drug dealer giving me a free sample, it felt like what I imagine engaging in sexual abuse towards children might feel like. My suffering as a sexual abuse survivor and as a survivor of the genocide implemented by the Chinese in Singapura was completely ignored by everyone, including the supposed healthcare professionals I interacted with at the space which describes itself as a "university" and by the surrounding city. I staged a peaceful protest for which I was arrested, which led directly to the only point in my life where I have felt truly suicidal.
Every education system in my life has implemented a genocide upon me, in full view of hundreds, thousands of students, teachers, professors, healthcare professionals. I have attempted to seek redress at all of these institutions and received only further violence, further trauma. I approached a "Jeremy DeBoer" at a "Human Rights" office on the campus, was given a print-out of a form and a glare that can only mean "you'll f*** off now, n*****, if you know what's good for you". I approached lawyers at SorbaraLaw in Waterloo who completely ignored my concerns, several students have killed themselves at the place where I attempted to educate myself and build a life, as well as other similar spaces in Ontario. No rigorous investigation has been carried out by the government, the press/journalists, or even the citizens and taxpayers who provided me with OSAP loans which I took quite seriously and approached my education as seriously as I could, given the decades worth of dehumanization I had been struggling against.
In spite of all of this, I went to great lengths independently to educate and humanize myself to the extent possible and build a life. In spite of the racist, anti-Black, anti-Indigenous, anti-Muslim, colorist, casteist spaces I had to endure in Singapura, Canada, at home and elsewhere. I participated in Open Source software projects, learning to operate the FreeBSD operating system on dedicated hardware, providing several petabytes of secure routing through the hardware/netowrk I operated. I worked briefly at two jobs in Canada, one in British Columbia, one in Ontario. I had to vacate both positions due to extreme traumatization. There has been no accountability/responsibility thus far. At my last position as Senior Site Reliability Engineer with Nylas, I was 32 years old with not 1 year of trauma-free, joyful life to look back at. On 12th February 2021, I was traumatized to the point of re-experiencing my entire lifetime's worth of traumatization at one unavoidable, excruciating length, including the trauma from that act of violence itself. I approached the Ontario Human Rights Legal Aid clinic in this severely traumatized state and was told to "seek accommodation".
This is the backwards, pointless, nonsensical, state of the colonizers' world. There is barely any humanity here, but they are all quite proud of the convenient narratives they have built for themselves, ignoring all of the violence that they engage in every moment of their ignorant lives. A peaceful, non-violent student of Buddhadhamma, such as myself, will suffer for decades without the tiniest bit of effort expended by anyone to understand our suffering. I owe my re-humanization and (re)education to Lord Buddha Shakyamuni, to the Buddhadhamma, to the Sangha, to His Holiness The 14th Dalai Lama, to Thich Naht Hanh, to Dr. Ambedkar, to the Threefold-Precious-Gem, to Nature, and all I had to nourish me on this journey was a single drop of blood.
Thank you.
Jai Bhim 🤎🙂✊🏾